I can’t believe how the time has flown since my return from Thailand. As you can imagine, it's been a busy couple of months (hence why it's taken me forever to get anything written up on here...) ! It feels like just yesterday we were fundraising, making plans, packing supplies, and stuffing as much information about this foreign country into our heads as possible. But now… it’s all over. We made it there and back with bags full of Thai goodies, heads full of memories and hearts full of encouragement and faith.
But I’ve gotten
ahead of myself. Let’s go back to the beginning…
As the New Year
dawned this past January, this trip was one of the big highlights that I was
looking forward to for the year 2015. It was also one of my biggest prayer
concerns and one of the most daunting responsibilities I have embarked on.
Planning
progressed and as departure day loomed closer, though I was feeling prepared
for the trip itself, I found myself insecure about my role on this particular
trip. I have never been on overseas missions before and to be in a leadership
role over these students was intimidating. I didn’t know what to expect and I
didn’t know what I should be ready for. I didn’t have any idea what God was
going to bring our way and I didn’t really know what it was going to look like
for me to serve. But the day before we left, God send encouragement and clarity
to me from a fellow youth worker who I have looked up to for years. She helped
me to clarify my purpose and excited me about my role as both a discipler and a
(almost mom-like) comforter on this trip. Being the only female leader, I had
the joy of connecting and encouraging the 9 young ladies on the trip and WOW
did I end up learning a lot! About myself, about leadership, and about Jesus
and His church.
One of my big jobs
as a leader was organizing a huge garage sale and silent auction event to raise
funds for the trip. We collected donations of used items from friends, family,
and other church members and completely packed our gym facility with an
incredible array of used “treasures”. Hours and hours of phone calls, pick-ups,
organizing, pricing, more organizing, and then selling the items, was totally
worth it. I loved every exhausting second of it! We were able to raise over
$5000 to put towards the team funding and we had a great time working together
to pull it off!
Speaking of funding, I was blown away by the generosity of my family and friends. God's provision through their giving had me in tears as I realized the support group God has built around me. I am blessed with so many loving people who have influenced and encouraged me throughout my life and this trip was such an amazing reminder of that!
Of course there is
not space here to go into all the details that a trip like this really needs in
order to be understood (well, there is space, but you probably don't want to sit here for hours reading it...) but I will share some of the biggest highlights and most
impactful moments for me.
Week One: Bangkok
During our first
week, we served in Bangkok, mostly at the Ruth Center with an amazing little
lady named Noi (whose name literally means ‘little’). She works in the slums of
Bangkok, serving the elderly who otherwise have no one in the world who cares for them. The biggest part of her
ministry is simply visiting, talking, and being a steadfast friend to these men
and women who live most of their days in solitude. She shares the glorious news
of Christ with them, brings them rice, connects them to each other in
community, and organizes construction projects on their homes to improve their
living conditions. We had the joyous opportunity to take part in each of these
activities. Each day we would make rice deliveries and visit with the grandmas
and grandpas. Through the help of a translator we got to hear their stories,
pray for their needs and praise God for their faithful witness in the midst of
their poverty.
I think one of the
most impacting things for me was to see my brothers and sisters in Christ
living and worshipping God on the other side of the world. To see the CHURCH in
another country, growing, expanding and furthering God’s kingdom was huge for
me. They look so different. They speak so different. And yet to hear them sing
praises to our God, the SAME God, was amazing; a little taste of heaven. I was
convicted about my own stereotyped view of Christianity – stereotypes I didn’t
even know I had! And I found myself praising God for His faithfulness across
cultures, generations, and countries. I was overflowing with joy in the
salvation of these elderly Thai people, for their stories of His grace as He
sought out each one of them – men and women who had lived their whole lives
serving a false god, with no hope, deserted by their families, but not
forgotten by their Saviour.
Another special
part of our ministry in Bangkok was the kindergarten we got to visit each day.
We ran a short kids program with the kids, aged 2-5. We sang songs, read them
Bible stories, played games and made crafts. But more than that, we got to see
little kids from the slum communities smile. We got to make them laugh and they
got to steal our hearts. It’s amazing the love God gives you for little
children. Jesus had a heart for kids and as Christians, I think we should too. They
are precious gifts, so full of life and yet so vulnerable to their situations.
As I held little Thai girls and boys in my arms, children with whom I couldn’t
communicate beyond a hug and a smile, I prayed with all my heart. Their life in
the slums is so uncertain and yet they can have the strongest foundation in
Christ. How I pray they will reach out to Him and accept His truth in the
coming years of their lives!
Bangkok Temple Tour
Our final full day
in Bangkok, we toured several Buddhist temples and spent the day taking in Thai
culture and life in downtown. We spent time praying for the city, the people,
and the country of Thailand. I found myself feeling a growing sense of shame as
I wandered through the massive and extravagant temples and their extensive,
beautiful grounds. These people spend so much time, money, and devotion on
their beliefs. They are so dedicated and hopeful but it’s all a lie. And yet I,
who know the Truth, I who have a relationship with the Creator God and Saviour
of the world, am sometimes so flippant with my faith. I am faint of heart and
selfish with my time and money.
I thought of our
materialistic culture, our pursuit of wealth, power and fame and I realized we
are no different than these Buddhist believers – our idol just isn’t in the
shape of a golden Buddha.
Week Two – Chiang Rai
After our week in
Bangkok, we left the smothering heat and flew up North to Chiang Rai. Our first
taste of Northern Thailand was an hour-long elephant ride through the beautiful
hill country of the North where the smog was mostly gone and the temperature
much more bearable. The thrill of riding the elephants had everyone in great
spirits!
In the North we
served at the Changed Life Center. This center is a place for pastors to come
and receive training, encouragement, and safety while they study. It is located
right beside the Mekong River where you can look across and see the country of
Laos. Many pastors come from Laos where Christians are heavily persecuted. In
Thailand they receive biblical training before they head back into their
country to continue to reach their people with the Gospel. Other pastors from
the hill tribe villages in Northern Thailand also visit the Changed Life Center
and are given the opportunity to grow and learn more about the Bible and
Christian faith. With the tools and equipping they receive they go back to
their villages and congregations energized and ready to teach.
One of my very
favourite parts of the trip was travelling with these pastors to their villages
and seeing their local ministries in action. I loved hearing their heart
(through a translator) for their people, seeing their ministries, the churches
they built with their own hands and the dreams they have for the future. Again,
seeing the church, the body of Christ, function and flourish on the other side
of the world, was eye-opening for me and the whole team.
I was also
convicted by the hard-work these pastors do. Not only do they preach the Gospel
to often hostile ears, they have to provide their own living through farming,
sometimes even providing for others in their community through their work. They
build their own homes and churches, and make time to study and disciple others!
They make me feel so lazy in comparison. It’s hard not to compare and feel such
discouragement and depression at our own lack of strength and hard work. God
has given us each different paths, in different countries, yet we’re all part
of His church and serve His purpose in a different way.
Staying at the
Changed Life Center gave us the opportunity to hear from several of the pastors
of Laos and the tribal groups in the area. Their testimonies and conviction was
encouraging and inspiring. God really spoke to me through these pastors,
teaching me things that I never expected Him to teach while I was on a missions
trip.
It reminded me
that God’s goal is continually to sanctify us, to grow us to be more like Him
in all ways, wherever we are. His faithfulness is real and true, His wisdom is
beyond me, and His care and intentions are deeply personal.
And I saw that
truth reflected in the work He was doing in the students as well. I truly did
feel that God was working in us maybe even more than the people we were
serving. And it wasn’t just to give us a more missional heart or to teach us to
love and preach to all the world – it was basic things like “love one another”
and “be a servant of all”, it was the reality of the hope of our own salvation
and praise for His grace and mercy and love in our own lives.
Why is it that God
sends us OUT in order to teach us much of the same things we can “learn”
without leaving a pew at church? Maybe because in the going, our faith has
works – our faith has hands and feet, not merely ears and minds. Our whole body
is invested in the journey of sanctification as we sweat and hug kids and are
sleep deprived and taste different food and hammer nails and paint murals and
smell incense and walk through villages and carry rice and sit in the dust with
the elderly. And of course we don’t need to leave North America to do these
things or to learn or to be sanctified in Christ… but God said go into all the
world and make disciples… I always thought it was for the salvation those who
would be disciples; I didn’t really realize it was part of the outworking of my
own salvation as well.
And here I will
close, because I have to close somewhere. There is so much more to tell and
more to ponder. I know that this experience has given more depth to my faith
and my understanding of God and the body of Christ. I’m so thankful for the
blessing of this opportunity to grow, for the opening of my eyes, and the
conviction in my heart. To God be the glory, honour and praise!
Thanks for
reading!